Last night I was laying down next to my 2 year old son in his tiny toddler bed. (I fit oh so perfectly in the tiny space) It was bedtime and we were doing our nightly routine. I lay next to him until he falls asleep. I suppose some may say that is a bad habit to get into. And no matter how the “habit” originated, I don’t mind it so much. And the time with our children at this age goes so fast, I think it’s worth it. Anyway….back from my bunny trail….he promptly stuck in his thumb and snuggled in close to me. He doesn’t seem to mind cuddling even when we start sweating because it is so warm! He then reached out across my body with his non-thumb sucking hand to find my hand. He wanted to hold it while he fell asleep. This was an amazing moment for me (I try and cherish these moments) as I realized, at that point in time, all he wanted was me. To hold my hand and fall asleep. To love me and let me love him. He felt completely safe and sound saying goodbye to another day and drifting off to sleep. He trusts me.
Yesterday started out with me contemplating all that was part of my life, the good and the bad. As well as the possibility of things happening. And immediately, and throughout the rest of the day, I know God was telling me that I can trust him. Trust him completely and no matter what happens. I heard songs about trust, verses about trust…it was everywhere.
“This is what the LORD says: ‘Cursed are those who put their trust in mere humans, who rely on human strength and turn their hearts away from the LORD . They are like stunted shrubs in the desert, with no hope for the future. They will live in the barren wilderness, in an uninhabited salty land. But blessed are those who trust in the LORD and have made the LORD their hope and confidence. They are like trees planted along a riverbank, with roots that reach deep into the water. Such trees are not bothered by the heat or worried by long months of drought. Their leaves stay green, and they never stop producing fruit.'” Jeremiah 17:5-8
Or how about this one….. “Trust in the LORD with all your heart, and lean not on your own understanding. In all your ways, acknowledge Him, and he will make your paths straights.” Proverbs 3:5-6
Merriam-Webster defines “trust” as a “belief that someone or something is reliable, good, honest, effective, etc.” Why do I have such a hard time completely trusting in God? Why do I still have this hint of doubt when I think of the difficult circumstances I am facing or will face? I go through times where I fully believe in my heart that I can trust God to work everything out for good. Then it is like I forget, and I think, “yea, but maybe it won’t really all be good.” Why is it so hard for me to remember the very reliable, honest, true, loving, faithful, guiding Spirit of God? Probably because nothing I experience on earth is or ever will be 100% trustworthy. Think of those people who you really really trust. Family members, close friends, your Pastor, etc. And then think of the qualities they possess that allow you to trust them. Faithfulness, reliability, integrity, LOVE, grace. But, (and I say this carefully and with love and respect) somewhere along the line, we all fail and break that trust. Because we are human and are subject to sin, we cannot be completely 100% trusted. Now, that’s not to say we don’t work to gain someone’s trust back. Not to mention the healing power of forgiveness and reconciliation (that could be another blog! :)) Anyway, I think you get the point. The only one who we can 100%, totally trust is God, our loving Father and creator. So…….I think I can speak for a lot of us when I say that this is hard to do.
But let’s try something here. Let’s (just for a moment) with all our might, let ourselves imagine what it would be like if God could be 100%, without a doubt, trusted. Trusted to hold us through every single moment of the day. To give us strength and wisdom through every single situation we encounter each day. To work things out for good….not just ok, but absolutely, amazingly GOOD! Are you imagining……..Wow…….how freeing in my spirit is this thought! How indescribable to completely have someone to trust like that! How incredible to believe that He loves me THAT much to take care of everything and to give me more than I could imagine. Wow…..I can trust Him like that. Because He is trustworthy like that.
“Jesus Christ is the same yesterday and today and forever.” Hebrews 13:8
“The Lord is my shepherd, I lack nothing.
2 He makes me lie down in green pastures,
he leads me beside quiet waters,
3 he refreshes my soul.
He guides me along the right paths
for his name’s sake.
4 Even though I walk
through the darkest valley,[a]
I will fear no evil,
for you are with me;
your rod and your staff,
they comfort me.
5 You prepare a table before me
in the presence of my enemies.
You anoint my head with oil;
my cup overflows.
6 Surely your goodness and love will follow me
all the days of my life,
and I will dwell in the house of the Lord
forever.” Psalm 23
The Bible doesn’t suggest that we can, maybe, kind of, every once in awhile trust God. It’s absolute truth that we can trust God.
Why don’t we trust our Savior, who defeated death and sin for us, simply because he loves us so.
Thanks for reading- Bek
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Bekah, I needed to be reminded of this. Thanks for sharing.
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Thanks Bekah for this reminder of God’s faithfulness and also for a reminder of how fragile our faith can be. We know God is trustworthy, and yet we are often found lacking in trusting Him in the struggles of life, even in the little things, let alone the big questions before us. Know that we are praying for your family in these hard days, with so many questions before you all. I have claimed Paul’s prayer for the Ephesians, (Eph. 3:14-21) many times lately, and it is a part of my prayer for you and Brad and your family in these hard questions that you are facing. May you all find Him enough as you move forward in faith in this journey.
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